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Weddings, DVD tour...!
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Writing for myself again!

today, one friend of mine got married!!!! i was kinda late for the wedding, (the ceremonial) but i get to see the whole ceremony =D
i take pictures.... ill post one, when i finish my....thoughts.

So, while she was getting married, i was thinking about the day i get married.
I thought about the things that the priest (i'm part of the Catholic Church) will going to say about me in the ceremony...and other stuff!
i couldn't help to think why people spend so much money in a wedding
why is so important to celebrate, why we get so hyper about only one day....!

LONG TIME AGO, (Way long ago) Marriage was supposed to be a decision of two people wanting to be together and to make a family
the celebrations was more like a party that the people who know the bride and groom organized just to celebrate their union.
See,  i think, that was a GREAT IDEA until, money appears.... and human relations became more....cold.

The day that you decided to become a couple, and that you think you are going to be with that person the rest of your life, that day, for me is the day that GOD bless your union with that person.
a priest only confirmed what GOD already approves. 
Honestly, when two people really love each other, nothing else matters for be together.
Like a said, i'm catholic, in the doctrine said that you are committing sin when you have premarital sex and start living together without the blessing of the priest.

I don't believe that, i think the actual sin is being irresponsible about SEX!, but if two people love each other.... and you already commit yourself to spend your life with that person then.......what others said doesn't really matter.
not even the church... for some ODD reason people who doesn't get married or just hold a small ceremony, last more than the ones who held the BIG WEDDING... guess why? in one, doesn't matter who big or small is.... you are getting married to the person you love. in the other case.... you are just doing for the whole EVENT and so many other factors.


Loving someone is not only being married. It's also know that with that person you are going to spend all your lifetime with that person. respecting that person, admiring that person, being there for that person everyday and everytime, in good and bads.
that person must be doing the same for you.

i lost the track of the post. must be because im chatting in spanish i can't keep going with my thoughts in english XD!ç

PD: the DVD.  i dislike beautiful world as a albumn, only always is enjoyable for me.... must be the beat, but the dvd... i still prefer the scene tour. the only solo that is good... was the ninomiya san!

Incredible.
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LONG WEEK. A REALLY LONG ONE.

DVD'S ANIME.... JUST THAT.

BEING AWAY FROM INTERNET AND COMPUTER?

PAYS OFF. YOU REALIZE.... THAT THERE'S A LIFE OUTSIDE YOUR ROOM.

GOOD FRIDAY WAS AMAZING.

I NEVER FELT SO GOOD BEFORE HOLY WEEK.

I'M PROUD TO BE CHRISTIAN.

I LOVE GOD AND JESUS.

I FEEL GOOD. !!!! 



Who is going to tell you....
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About 4 years ago, I was a outgoing person.
I had many things to do, with university
meeting my friends and stuff....
Wanting to know what should i do the next day,
i spend most of my time outside...

But then, one day, i decide to enter in the society.
and it was a painful beginning.
Since then, my fears were building up, my negativism took over my mind, and my house became
the only save place for me.

and then i lose everything. My friends, my powerwill to live, i gain weight (i'm still on 200lbs, since last year)
i start to not going out at all... i can spend the 7 days at home, it's pretty...depressing.
How i become like this?, I love music. Now i love everything about Japan. my fantasies are getting me frustrated everysingle day.
I can't hit reality. I finally graduate from college. Im going to turn out 25 soon, stuck at home.
I watched Freeter ie no kau, i can relate. it's so HARD. but at least.... he did a part time job. i'm not doing anything.
he can work in a construction site. I can't. 

I'm ashamed of myself right now. I want to laugh again. i want to do something GOOD FOR ME AND EVERYONE (means family)
Getting up late or early, doesn't make difference. since next week, i'm going to sacrifice being online.
Like the priest said: "Holy week is sacrificing something that you really love.   in other to get something even better from GOD"

I intend to write like a song....i end up writing my frustration.

What really matters.
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When i was more younger... (Aka. 8 years ago), i used to write about everything that i was experience with growing up, all my feelings where put in a blog that i used to have, but suddenly, i started to stay at home more often....living me without anything to write.... and that's how i end up closing that blog....

Now, i really want to write....about everything that im feeling right now. i have a diary... and a lot of notebooks... because for a strange reason i love to collect them, as well as pen and mechanic pencils!

Well, for me it's difficult to understand God ways, because the more time pass... i feel i'm losing time.
See, i'm christian catholic... i'm proud of it, Proud to love God and Jesus. I put myself in their hands cuz'
there are things that are not meant for me to solve... i just wait until the things settle down by themselves... there's no rush and anything... but lately i've thinking pretty hard about life itself....

i have what you call in english a Bachelor Degree in Accounting. Studying that was the most tedius thing in my whole life. i spend 5 years studying it... and in my third year i realize that i didn't like it... and i look for the way to change careers... but my fear about changing and my parents opposition where hitting hard on my.... and like you can say ... i chose the easiest way. stick with accounting until i graduate.

Now, i'm graduate in accounting but without any job offers. and sometimes i don't want to get one because it seems like i don't last 3 months. i became a shut in... i don't go out of my home if i don't have anything to do.....
i don't see  my "friends" anymore.... yes... i'm a loner. =S, i wish i can travel... but then i don't know my own country.

I never like my home country. since i was little.... i want to go out from here and live in another country. life is more harder than ever..... but since i feel stuck..... i blame everything surround me......specially the country where i live.  i don't hate it.... cuz' im going to lie if i do.... but i just don't want to be here....
I know God can punish me sending me to a very very very very tough place...where i can appreciate this country, but.... God knows that i don't hate, it just that... i want a different.....life?

i don't know anymore what i'm talking about. The truth is that, it's so difficult. everything. i want my friends back i want to laugh again.... i don't want to feel down. for the past years and month i've been like that.
Getting a job is difficult cuz' i started late to look for one. they said everyone pass this don't worry and i'm like.... yeah right.... im the only one that people fired cuz' i'm too blunt and honest. AND they never see a rude person in me.... but i guess this is the part where i say that God only knows what the things happend like this.

yes i'm seeing everything in black color. plus all my friends lead a almost married life.... and i'm the one who never experience that kind of thing...and i really don't want to if i don't have anything professional yet.... so
I can love music so much... and then i don't know for what i want to work in music.....

I'm being stupid.





THE DUET
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I WILL NEVER GET IT....

but.... Man, the glory that you have in 2009 is not

comingback. I'm sorry but... how come ARASHI goes

first to the earthquake area, they do a mini live for 500

people and now they are going to do a FREE

CONCERT of their tour????????

seriously? competing the DUO with the ARASHI humanity?


give me a break AVEX. you suck big TIME!. i very

dislike you...and YES for me they are NOTHING but a

EMOTIONLESS DUO

ADELE I LOVE YOU
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ADELE WON 6 GRAMMYS AWARDS!! EPIC WIN!!!!

SHE IS THE BEST!!!! WHITNEY, REST IN PEACE!

I LOVE ROLLING IN THE DEEP VERY WELL DESERVED

THIS YEAR TALENT AND TRUE MUSIC WON. PLEASE GOD LET THIS BE THE BEGINNING OF THE BIGGEST CHANGE IN MUSIC HISTORY!

Refrain Cover
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I don't own the song or the lyrics. FUn purposes only =P

http://soundcloud.com/shamir-del-c-diaz/refrain-cover

Ohno Satoshi
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It's tomorrow but in Japan is already Nov. 26, so... what i want to say to leader....


Satoshi is a pretty name XD
i'm lame. Anyways... God Bless you, even more than you are right now... (i don't think he is christian...but well!)
Keep doing your things... keep evolving into a better person...
you know i really like you. because when you have interviews and when you talk about your talents you said that
you have to keep doing it in order to master it.
That's pretty impressive. you said that you don't have it. you just keep doing what you like.
hahahahah Ohno FACE IT you have a talent.

Anyway.... XD 31 man!!! GOD! hey i do think that you have someone.
See.... when i like a man XD! i mean i love the 5 beautiful japanese in arashi...
and a dream about it...
im pretty sure that you have someone to love.
hahahahaha i have that kind of power. 
XD! kidding

happy birthday! have a great day! and please TALK MORE XD! hahahaha

loove ya 

TVXQ i miss you
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Perphaps... is not good to said something about them...
But it pains me... that there are some people... who thinks that the blame is for one part.. (homin or JYJ) and it's actually the blame of the 5, cuz' no one but them, knows why they aren't togheter yet... and why Homin stills the position of no talking to them.

You see, my intuition tells me... that beyond money and fame... there' s something more deep.... in that conflict.

I don't know what happend to you guys. i feel like you betrayed something important about the fans that follow you because you  were good singers and you had loyalty towards each other. 
It's not fair, that now, 3 of them are not able to promote in S. Korea but the other 2 received the love of new fans that only see one part of the whole story.
That company has a bad story, i mean with Shinhwa look what they do. That guy only wants money doesn't care about the talent or another HUMAN thing about them.... what is wrong.

Fame is important? Money? Being a celebrity is more cool? 
I hate the president of that company.-.. and NO! IT'S not jeaulosy, it's that im disgust with everything about them, I hope the duo realized that they are doing wrong and go to the other 3.
i hope that they can still be friends. Love is the only thing that moves people. Yes is the only thing.


Please TVXQ comeback as a 5.!

Celine Dion playlist!
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you better keep your eyes on me!!!